Last week, on my Instagram and Facebook accounts, I wrote that I was going to write a blog post and send a newsletter out that day. All fired up and ready to tell FEAR where to go, I started writing both the blog and the newsletter. Then something went wrong on my website and I couldn’t do anything on it. Talk about UGGGHHHH! Here I made this promise to do something and I was prevented from doing it by technical issues.
Today, I try to login to my website and get the same technical error. Instead of freaking out or succumbing to FEAR, I go to my Web Host’s page and start a CHAT conversation with their help team. But before I started the CHAT, I intended that the problem would easily fixed within 5 minutes. (I have been on a CHAT conversation that lasted an hour before that went nowhere and did not fix the problem!) Guess what, today’s problem was solved in 7 minutes with minimal input from me and no frustration (except trying to remember who my Web Host was, haha.)
Lesson Learned: Intentions, positive belief and asking Source for help goes a long way.
Changing subjects now… If you read some of my Instagram posts towards the end of 2015, early 2016, then you know all about how hard the ‘failure’ of my life purpose/this website have been for me to deal with. I decided I was going to shut my website down by stopping the annual renewal fees on it. I hesitated a week and got the dates all messed up in my head and it automatically renewed before I could tell them to stop it. HA! Guess the Universe didn’t want me to give up; but I still didn’t know what to do with my Life Purpose so I just gave up on it. I started doing lots of Yoga Challenges on Instagram and won some of them too. In retrospect, I can see that the Yoga Challenges were something that I could do well and brought me joy; unlike my Life Purpose. And hell, at least I was being “paid” to do them by occasionally winning prizes!
But then I see this sign on my computer for the past couple weeks that says “do you want to be in the same place a year from now?” Uggghhh….. I have lived the past 3 years of my life in almost the same place. I was in the same place each year but at least I felt a bit happier and fulfilled when I was TRYING to do something/anything with my Life Purpose. So here I am again. TRYING.
Thanks to some words from two beautiful woman on Instagram this morning, I came to 3 very profound conclusions today.
- I am blunt and truthful when I talk and I was shamed by others about it. Certain people have told me that I should be nicer when I talk or that I should manipulatively say things as though not to hurt anyone’s feelings. What has happened since then is that I have been on this quest for a few years now to try to be less blunt and more acceptable to others. But no one could tell me exactly how to do it and it didn’t feel in alignment with who I AM because THAT ISN’T ME. I tell the truth. I tell it like I see it. I don’t manipulate my words to make others feel better about me. I now choose to embrace this part of me instead of thinking that I am wrong or less than; regardless of whether others accept me or not. I’m not everyone’s cup of vegan tortilla soup, and I don’t need to be. In the words of Lady Gaga, “There’s nothing wrong with loving who you are, because He made you perfect babe.” (~Born This Way)
- I need to keep doing what *I* want to do with my Life Purpose; not what others expect or want. Just be me. Accept who I am, not change to fit a mold of what I think others want. I made an online program to help others and I based it on what I thought others could use and how I could help them change their life for the better. It wasn’t exactly what I wanted it to be but I thought it was a good compromise between what services I can offer vs. what potential clients need and would pay for (because all the information I learned online said that’s what I was supposed to do. That info also told me I should come up with this attention sparking blog titles and email subject lines. I just caught myself looking at changing this blog post title so more people would read it and told myself NOPE! What will be, will be.) When I offered my online program up for sale on Black Friday, no one signed up. So I compromised what I wanted to do based on what I thought others needed and it still went nowhere. Hmmm…. Time to just do ME. Be true to ME. In the words of Rebecca Campbell “You do YOU.” (~Light is the New Black)
- I realized today that something I naturally do very well, is not JUST something I do well, but it is a GIFT of mine. Meaning it is something I can do well that some people can’t do. I have an amazing analytical skill and an amazing intuition. Both of those together help me with my gift. I have a gift to see the blocks on people’s path to a better life. While I am not able to magically change people’s lives for the better (it’s their job to do that), I can point out their blocks and help them find ways to overcome them.
- Bonus Number Four I have just come up with. I love it when all the pieces come together! With my truthful, blunt voice, I will assist others on their path by seeing their blocks and directing them towards positive change. ME doing ME while living my Life Purpose. I know that sometimes I can’t see my way through the forest and all it took was someone else saying something to me that shifted my perspective. It made me see things I couldn’t/would’t/didn’t see before. I see myself as the voice guiding others out of the forest on a path that sparkles with hope and contentment and positive change in their life.
What does that mean for my clients? Specifically, I don’t know since I just realized it! Sounds maybe like One on One mentoring sessions that are Mind/Body/Soul Practice directed. Please feel free to drop me a contact form on my website’s Contact Me page if this is something you would be interested in pursuing with me.
I am now open to see what path my Life Purpose takes me.
Namaste, Love & Light to YOU.
© Me & Kiwi last week in our backyard. I am doing the Yoga Pose named Extended Hand to Big Toe Pose.